It's Official....The Cycle Has Begun!!

So, I started the BCP's yesterday. YEAH!!!I don't know if it was the heat or the pill or what but I had a massive headache all day and felt very nauseous. So far today I have been feeling okay, but not great. Thankfully I don't have as bad a headache as yesterday. I find it oh so amusing to be taking BCP's and my prenatal vitamins at the same time. It's too funny. Anyways, I am extremely emotional this week too. I watched American Idol last night and actually cried during one of the performances. I think I am just overwhelmed and scared now that this is all happening. Don't get me wrong, I want this more than anything, but I am not looking forward to all the chemicals in my body and the nausea, etc. It is making me upset again. I am now getting pissed off that I have to go through all this when there are other non-infertiles out there that don't have to worry about any of it. Just boom...want to have a baby? Done! F-that!!!!

T- Minus 3 Days til BCP's!

Okay, so we are a go!! I will start the BCP's on Tuesday. My next appt. is on May 26th (I believe that is when the Lupron will start). So, it's official....I now have a month to lose my extra weight. I am so excited, I can't believe its almost here. I want this to work so badly that I am finding it hard to think about anything else. I actually bought a Baby Names book. I know that it's kind of jumping the gun, but you have to think positively, right?? :0) I watched the movie Baby Mama last night, it just happened to be on when I was channel surfing, and I couldn't turn it off. I had seen it before, but way before all the IF stuff surfaced, and I cried. I think it was a release of my anxiety, excitement and hope all rolled into one. DH was just snoring away next to me. :0)