Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Still in Recovery Mode...and Smoke Free!

So, let's see...I had wanted to post everyday during ICLW week, but as you can see fell a day behind. Yesterday was just a complete lazy day. My DH had stayed home with me and we laid around all day watching movies and tv. We watched Twilight, which I thought was pretty good. I don't think the character that plays Edward is gorgeous so that was kind of a let down. Today, DH went back to work and because my Mom was off today she came and spent the day with me. It was really nice. She brought my Great Aunt over for a visit who is in her mid 80's and we got to spend time together which rarely happens in this rat race of a life I lead. I am finding myself to be much more tired today than over the past few days. I think I am finally relaxing and my body is seeking sleep. I only got up once during the night last night and actually managed to nap for about an hour late this morning. I am hoping to sleep completely through tonight..fingers crossed!

Totally random, but I need to share with regards to IVF. Something I have not shared but my brother had gotten a divorce back in 2004? or there abouts. Anyways, he had 3 kids from that marriage. His ex-wife remarried in 2006, who I still speak to as she is my niece and nephews Mom. Okay, so the situation is a little weird because my brother passed away in Sept of 2007 and I have grown closer to my ex-sis-in-law and her husband (who is an awesome step-dad btw). Okay, so get to the point Melissa, well on Sunday when I mentioned in my post that my sis-in-law came for dinner it was that family. DH and I had not told them anything about our situation but figured now that my surgery was done and successful that we would share our plans for the upcoming IVF. So, where am I going with this? My ex sis-in-law told us and the kids on Sunday at my house that they are doing IVF too...and starting as soon as possible!!!! She had had her tubes tied after my niece was born (my niece is now 13) and the docs say that IVF is the best chance of them getting pregnant as my ex sis-in-law is 42 going on 43. I am excited to have someone close to me to being doing this at practically the same time, but a selfish part of me wants to scream out, "It's my turn!" "You did this already!" Now she has called me everyday to talk (very out of the ordinary) and I don't really know what to make of all of this, not to mention that I am not happy how they told the kids...in front of us? not alone? What were they thinking?? They are not fans of their step dad to begin with (they miss my brother) and have apparently not said anything about the news. Any thoughts from my blogging friends?

Sunday, March 22, 2009

I Com Leav We Day 2

Hello All!! I figured I would write a small post as to how the recovery is going. So, yeah last night I was in so much pain I was delirious. Thank God for pain meds. My DH is so wonderful though. He dealt with it with such patience and love. He and the dog slept with me in the living room last night because it hurts too much to get up into my ridiculously high bed. I guess to try and put the pain into words, it feels like I have done 1000's of sit-ups and then opted to not do anything ever again. :0) I really can't wait to be feeling my normal self again. Today has been a bit better. I actually showered which really helped. I just have to watch what position I put my body in. We are having my sis-in-law and nieces and nephews over for dinner so that I am excited for. DH is the chef for tonight. I am so proud of him. I can't tell you how blessed I feel to have his heart.

Side note: Have not even thought about having cigarettes! I guess that is the cure...go through surgery and severe pain..at least so far that is working for me!! :0)

Saturday, March 21, 2009

I Com Leav We Day 1

Welcome to all new and old readers!!!! Our IF timeline is posted on the right hand side, but just to give you a quick synopsis: After over 2 years of "trying" on our own we went for workup; only to discover DH has azoospermia. He had a MESA procedure and we successfully retrieved a decent amount of sperm. On to IVF with ICSI...oh but wait, my HSG found that my left tube was blocked and needs to be removed! UGH! So, I actually had surgery yesterday and everything went perfectly smooth. Thank God. So, now after healing we will start cycling in May! I can't believe it.

With regards to my surgery, I was extremely emotional before and after, although crying after hurts a lot more. I feel better when I am sitting up or walking as opposed to laying down which really made sleeping last night not fun. So, today I am up early, planning on taking a pain pill and heading off to sleepy land. I didn't take any pain meds yesterday except for Motrin, but I need to sleep. I am exhausted. I am officially a non-smoker now. I had smoked up until Thursday night (night before surgery) mainly because I was scared to death. But, no more. Now that everything went smooth...its on to healthy baby making. I am off from work until next Friday so that gives me all week to get through the hard part of not smoking. Although God is getting me back for not quitting earlier...from not smoking I have been doing a lot of coughing which hurts like a b*tch!!!! :o) I get it...you live and learn.

I look forward to meeting and reading along with as many new people as possible and I Thank You for stopping by!!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Sorry, I am a Bad Posting Friend!

This will be a short post as I am at work. But, I wanted to apologize for not posting or reading along with all of yours. I have been very depressed (I guess you can say) these last couple of weeks and am slowly coming out of hiding. Nothing too big/bad has happened, but I have not had too much to say. I promise to catch up with all of you soon. My surgery is next Friday 3/20/09--can't believe it! I have signed up for IComLeavWe for March and promise to post lots during the week I am home. Hope all is well.

PS- I fell off the non-smoking wagon. :0( I am working on it though. It's the toughest thing I have ever had to do. I feel fine with it some days and then other days something bad happens at work or with the family and all I want to do is pick up a stupid cigarette. I really wish I had NEVER started in the first place. Thank you for bearing with me. I'll be back soon!!